October 30, 2008

• Apparently I Should Announce I'm Pregnant More Often...

  I got so many comments on that post.  More than any other, I believe.

  I am just over 7 weeks pregnant.  I am feeling well, other than being pretty tired.  I hate to say this because some of you may be tempted to throw things at your computer, but I don't generally get sick when I am pregnant.  I may feel a little queasy every now and then, but other than that and being exhausted, pregnancies have been relatively easy for me.

  We are happy and excited and SURPRISED.  Oh, yes, very surprised.  We were not planning on having another child, at least not right now.  In fact, my husband was very happy with our family just the way it was.  I thought maybe someday I would want another, but I wasn't sure about that either.  God made the decision for us and has given us another baby.  We are very blessed.  My husband actually took to the news easier than I did.  It took me about a week to wrap my head around it.

  I am telling everyone this early so they can pray.  Since we have already lost one baby, the fear of it happening again is very real and very scary.  I would rather be very, very sick because then I would FEEL pregnant.  My doctor does not see patients until they are 8-9 weeks along.  I have an appointment on November 12 which still feels very far away right now.  I found out that we had lost our second baby during a routine first trimester ultrasound at nearly 11 weeks.  I had what they call a missed miscarriage.  My body had no idea the baby had died, so I fear seeing a dead baby on an ultrasound screen again.  I know that sounds morbid, but those are the thoughts I am having right now.  Please pray that I will trust in the Lord and that our baby will be healthy and perfect.  I want so badly to enjoy this very much. 

  Now onto happier things...
  The girls are very excited.  Well, Ainsley is anyway.  The whole idea of a baby being mommy's belly is a bit over Lorelei's head right now.  Ainsley ran around church on Sunday telling everyone she saw that her mommy has a baby in her belly.  Everyone's mouth kind of fell open at the news, especially since it was coming from a 4-year-old.

  "AGAIN????"  That's what Ainsley said when we told her.  Like it's happened so many times before that she can remember.  Then she told us that she wanted one brother and three more sisters.  I think we'll just work on having one right now, thank you very much.

  Ainsley has been hugging my belly and talking to the baby.  She has named it Flower if it's a girl and Leaf if it's a boy.  We'll think about it....

  As for whether we want a boy or a girl.  Honestly, we really don't care.  I know that's what you're supposed to say, but no one really means it.  But we really do.  Another girl would be great.  We know what to do with girls.  We have PLENTY of girl clothes and we can fit one more girl in the room our girls share right now.   A boy would be wonderful also.  My kids are the only cousins my brother's boys have, so I would like them to have a boy cousin.  And I've been told a mommy and her son have a very special bond.  But none of that matters.  The perfect child for our family has already been chosen by God. 

  I sent the picture in that last post to our family in the thank you notes for Lorelei's birthday presents.  It was fun to get the phone calls and hear their reactions.
   

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